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"I hope you're thinking of me, 'cause all the stars above me sing your name." [May. 18th, 2011|10:05 pm]

Hey, it's been an uber long time since I have posted anything on my blog. Approximately 5 months! There has been a lot of things going on in my life lately, and I wish that I had enough time to explain it all. But sadly I don't. My soccer season is almost over, which is really sad because I didn't get to tell you anything about it. Basically we suck. Don't get me wrong, because I do love my team. We just honestly suck. Our record is 1:12:1. Yeah, that's 1 win, 12 losses. And 1 tie. I guess it's the effort that counts...?
Anyways, I'll tell you more later. (:

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Boys really irritate me. [Dec. 27th, 2010|02:46 pm]

Alright, so again it's been FOREVER since my last post, but whatever. I'm going to be quick here.
I just wanted to inform you all that Adrian and I are over. He is a stupid jerk, and I'm better off without him. (: the reason behind it isn't even a long story: he cheated on me. Nice, right? All of the stupid shit I've put up with is in the toilet.
God, I love relationships.

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"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." [Nov. 20th, 2010|11:24 pm]
[I'm feeling, |confusedconfused]

 Hello, Livejournal

It's been quite a while since I've last posted, and I think it's fair to state I've been neglecting this journal quite a bit. I suppose there are many things that have happened to me since my last post, but there's something recent I need to talk about first.

It really isn't an event. I'm just looking for some help, or an opinion at the least.

You see, I think it's safe to say that we've ALL made mistakes in our life. Right? We've all done things that we knew we shouldn't do. But for me, it's the story of my life. Literally. I have someone in my life right now that I love very much. He is everything to me. And somehow, I still seem to be screwing everything up, no matter what I try to do.

I'm the kind of person who lies to avoid hurting someone. Which, isn't really a very good habit to keep, seeing how lying is exactly what hurts people. But I mean, you can see where I'm coming from right...? If someone hurts my feelings, and they see that I'm upset they'll ask "Are you okay?" and the lie is: "Nooo no no, I'm okay. Don't worry." You see? That.

But I'm afraid that's not the only lying I do. Sometimes I tell very big lies too. But anyways, the problem is the love of my life is getting really hurt by these lies. And it's come to the point where he can't trust me with anything I say, but I'm not trying to be untrustworthy. I'm just trying to not hurt him. ): And sometimes, I say lies without even thinking. They just come out! And it's not like I can just take it back, because it's already been said. So at that point I'm just screwed.

Yes, yes, I probably sound like a terrible person. You're probably thinking "Well why don't you just stop lying" or something along those lines. And quite obviously, I've thought about that before. So SH. But the other problem, is HE'S lied about very significant things as well. It's not just me. I've lied MORE times, but he still has. I just don't think that's exactly fair.

I really am not sure what I should do, or what I'm EXPECTED to do. Feel free to comment or message me, but keep in mind this DEFINITELY is by no means the entire story. The entire story is so long, you have no idea...

 I do okayyy with judgmental comments, but I'm not promising I won't get mad if you say something completely hateful.
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This weekend sucks. >.> [Oct. 16th, 2010|07:34 pm]
[I'm feeling, |blahblah]

     Well, my week went by extremely fast. Overall I guess it was good. But, my weekend has sucked. Mostly because of the fact I'm grounded. >.>  And do you want to know why I'm grounded? Because I didn't turn off the lights. Yes, you read that right. Apparently I never turn them off before I go to school. So my mom decided to ground me for it. I didn't say anything though, because then she'd ground me longer. (x
     My grandma bought me a new acoustic guitar, and I'm sooo excited. But she won't let me have it until Christmas because other wise I "won't have anything to open on Christmas morning." I was just thinking I'm going to be fifteen, I don't need to open things on Christmas... but whatever. (:  And my mom's buying me a 32G Ipod Touch! Which, if you ask me, are the best two presents. Ever.
     I just spent an hour and a half playing Harry Potter on the Wii. Because THAT'S how bored I am. Being grounded is horrible. This makes me want to never turn a light on in my mom's house again. (x But it's okay, because I have a monster because my dad rocks.

   Well I'm suppose to be writing my story right now... Maybe I'll post it on here sometime. (:
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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2010|10:27 pm]
[I'm feeling, |exhaustedexhausted]

 I've been getting a lot of headaches lately. They're not so great. Luckily I have to go to the doctor's sometime soon to get my sports physical for soccer. Hopefully I'm not like, diseased or something. xD

Adrian and I have been having some, complications, to put it lightly. Just trying to decide whether to date, or be friends. It's getting a little stressful. But we have a really strong friendship, and I'm fairly confident that nothing will ruin that. (:

Today I went to Roger's homecoming game with my sister. It was pretty fun, except for the part where Adrian got mad at me, and I started crying and made a huge deal out of nothing. Other than that, it was great. On the bright side, I got an AMAZING cappuccino! It just about made my day. :P

Okay, so I need a little help. I have to write something for my composition through literature class, due on October 21st. You're most likely asking, "What do you have to write?" And there lies the problem. We can write anything we want, but I can't decide what to write! I really want to write something fiction, I just can't think of a story line. Feel free to help me out, I'm getting a little desperate... There's no specific length, but I'd like to stay to a 5 or 6 page maximum, since it's not a major project. (:

I'll post again tomorrow, because this laptop is making my headache worse. ):  

Asta luego(:
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2010|09:31 pm]
[I'm feeling, |confusedconfused]

Once upon a time...
     There was a girl. She was complicated, and predictable. She had a habit hurting the people who were closest to her. She was very lazy, and was VERY indecisive.
     And there was a boy. He was cute, and funny. And for some reason, he always had the right thing to say. When he called her beautiful, she ALWAYS knew that he meant it.
     They fell in love. He was everything that she could ever want. He was sweet, and he was the guy who cared about her more than anything else in the world. But this girl had a lot of problems. To say the least, she didn't really like herself a whole lot. Sometimes she wouldn't tell people what she was feeling, and it would all build up inside her until she had to get it out. She would hurt herself. She was always stressed. And sometimes, she cared just a little too much about what the rest of the world thought about her. But he still loved her no matter how crazy everyone else thought she was.
     Then one day, the girl did something stupid. She broke his heart. She made him feel terrible, and the girl regrets it every minute of her life. She was a horrible friend to him, even though the boy did nothing to deserve it. But the boy stayed by her side, even though the girl hurt him so bad.
     Even after all that, the boy still wanted to be friends with her. And eventually, she fell in love with him all over again. But this time, it was different. The boy had already found himself a new girlfriend. Every time the boy wanted her, she thought he wasn't good enough. She would push him away. She always seemed to find an excuse. Even after all the terrible things the girl said about him, and all the terrible things she had DONE to him, this girl still expected him to love her back. And she was wrong for that. But the funny thing is, is he does want her back. He finally wants her again. Everything is being laid out so perfect for her, and yet again, she is second guessing herself.
     So now, the girl is caught somewhere between her love for the boy, and her own selfishness. She feels like, one more mistake and he'll leave her for good. Life is full of risks, but she's too scared to gamble a best friend.
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Writer's Block: You and me and baby makes three [Sep. 23rd, 2010|04:39 pm]

Do you think having children is a fundamental human right? Should there should be any restrictions?

Honestly yes, there should be restrictions. There are many, many people out there who are mentally, physically, and economically unfit to have children. Not to mention the couples who go out and have 10 children then lack the funds to support the family. And the men, and women who apparently believe having children with 5 different people is a good idea.

It may have been a fundamental right at one point, but over the years, humans have proved to me that that right has been lost.
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Boys boys boys... >. [Sep. 23rd, 2010|04:30 pm]
[I'm feeling, |surprisedsurprised]

   So, last night I broke up with my boyfriend Fernando. It was alright, I mean we both figured it was going to happen sooner or later because lately we really haven't been clicking. We haven't even been able to find things to talk about. It has just been really awkward. Not to mention, we both go to different High Schools, making spending time with each other very inconvenient .

  I told him that I still wanted to be friends, which he seemed fine with. We still talk through text today during school, and everything seemed alright between us. Then, I get home and he texts me saying "Would you be okay with me ever talking to you about other girls?" and I'm thing well, seeing how we broke up less than 24 hours ago, no. But I still want everything between us to be okay so I reluctantly say "yeah, that'd be okay." but I add "though I'm sure any feelings you're having toward another girl aren't real, seeing how we JUST broke up last night"

  Where he proceeds to send me a text saying "Actually, I kind of liked her while we were dating too." This. Irritated me. His whole thing is, we're not dating so why should I be mad about it. But obviously I am (as would any other sane girl on this planet...) because it makes me feel like the last few weeks of our relationship were meaningless because I wasn't the ONLY girl he liked.

  Ehh. Boys definitely stress me out sometimes. At least I don't have to worry about it anymore because we're not dating. At least I feel good about breaking up with him now. On the bright side, the once inconvenience of going to different schools is now a personal benefit. :P

  School has been going a little better friend-wise. But the homework, tests, and quizzes are piling up on me these days. I have 3 quizzes to take tomorrow. Should be tons of fun.
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2010|06:19 pm]
[I'm feeling, |exhaustedexhausted]

 Chase Coy. Flyleaf. Owl City.
are all amazing.

that's all I've been listening to
all day long.

Not to mention,
Chase Coy
is oh-so gorgeous. xP

  School was alright, I suppose. I'm slowly but surely making new friends. :D
But we've been having a
of homework, tests, and quizzes lately. I'm really getting sick of it.
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School. l: [Sep. 16th, 2010|03:29 pm]
[I'm feeling, |tiredtired]

 Today was just another boring day at school. I've made a few more friends, actually. I've been sitting with my friend Jordan at lunch every day. He's really nice. I met him through my friend Adrian. And I've made some friends in Geometry too. (:
  Education and work wise...school is really easy for me. I'm really good at most of my subjects. Especially Spanish 1, and Geometry. We learned a lot about Geometry when I was in 7th grade, so this year has been a piece of cake. The only classes that I'm a little worried about is World History and Biology. I have some big tests coming up in those classes... /:
  Apparently I'm going to the circus today with my dad and other family. I don't really like the circus, but I thought it was really nice of my grandma to buy us the tickets.

  Alright, so when I was in the 7th grade, I started dating my friend Adrian. We dated for a year, and I ended up breaking up with him at the beginning of 8th grade. But even though we broke up, we've been super great friends, but nothing more. Now, I have another boyfriend, named Fernando, but we go to different high schools making this whole dating thing really complicated.
  I mean, it's not like we CAN'T date because we're going into different schools, but it makes it really hard. I always get the feeling that he's going to start liking a different girl. I know that I'm suppose to have trust with my boyfriend and all...but I don't trust people very easily I guess. /:  But it's more than just that. Me and him really aren't working out.
  So now, Adrian is telling me that he likes me again. Even though he has a girlfriend. Which is bringing everything to a whole new level of complication. I really don't like him like that, at all. Blahh. Ohh high school... /:

  But other than all that drama, things have been going alright for me. Still trying to fit in in high school, and make some friends. Everyone who used to go to Vanguard with me tells me that the first semester really sucks because you're still getting used to the change. But they say the second semester is always a lot better. So hopefully they're right. (:
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